Agape

"Agape doesn't love somebody because they're worthy.
Agape makes them worthy by the strength and power of its love.
Agape doesn't love somebody because they're beautiful.
Agape loves in such a way that it makes them beautiful." 

Although my spring break was pretty uneventful since I was sick for most of it, I also had the best weekend of my life. Going to tec has been so special to me ever since I first went as a junior. It really changed my life for the better and has taught me that there are people, and God, who love me unconditionally beyond my faults. I thought that maybe it would be different since I was now on Wisdom and an adult and I was right, but not in the way I thought. It was definitely my favorite tec since I went through. I got to spend a weekend with my best friends, ones who would hold me when I was crying, hug me for no reason, and make me feel loved. Even though I was loving Luther before, part of me was struggling with my faith life and personal issues. Tec helped me to put God back as number one in my life. Yesterday, I was told by someone that I have an amazing relationship with God and that is something that he respects and even envys. Although we aren't together anymore, partially for that reason, I have never respected someone more for saying that and not wanting to hold me back in my professional and spiritual life. As hard as break ups are, I respect him so much more now that he wants me to stay true to my values even if they don't agree with his. I have also been thinking a lot about summer which is 6.5 weeks away! I am kind of excited but at the same time I will really miss my friends here at Luther. I can't wait to see some of my best friends but also I am afraid that things will be different. I'm not sure what has been with me lately but I am trying my best to figure things out and let God have complete control of my life for I believe that he has an amazing plan for me and I just have to follow him to find it. Agape <3

Look Towards the Future...

Life is about trusting our feelings and taking chances.

Losing and finding happiness.

Appreciating the memories and learning from the past.

I realized that I have been so caught up with school, friends, soccer, and new experiences that I have neglected this blog. I guess since I have shared so many sad days, it's now time to share the happy ones too. I love Luther and I can't imagine myself somewhere else. It's weird because I feel like I've gone here longer than a few months. I've already met many amazing people and have started to get my life back and headed in the right direction. One thing I have been thinking about a lot lately is relationships and the future in that respect. For so long I had this picture of the guy I would marry, but now I wonder about that and what will actually happen. How do two people who like each other and have the potential to love bridge differences. I like to think that love conquers all and if it is meant to be it will happen. But still I wonder if I will really know what to do when the times comes. I guess you have to date a lot of the wrong guys to find the right one. Before I came to Luther I was sure I would date/marry a very athletic, smart, musical guy who wanted to be a doctor or something like that and who had basically the same upbringing as myself. Yet now I am not sure, maybe he'll be averagely smart, in a band, and with a very different background than mine. But I guess 6 days isn't long enough to make life long decisions so for right now I'm going to continue to enjoy myself and trust that God will put everything into place for me.